All Alone
Having Nathan gone for 11 days is reminding me of what it was like to live by myself. I don't like it. It's too quiet. There is something about just having someone around that makes me feel less lonely. I enjoy it for a little while, but it gets old fast.
It's a good reminder. I have a lot of friends that aren't married and don't have a "built-in" friend. The single life can really be lonely sometimes. Remembering that helps me keep my loneliness in perspective. Eleven days in the whole scheme of things isn't really that bad.
It's a good reminder. I have a lot of friends that aren't married and don't have a "built-in" friend. The single life can really be lonely sometimes. Remembering that helps me keep my loneliness in perspective. Eleven days in the whole scheme of things isn't really that bad.
3 Comments:
Amy, I imagine that after having Nathan in the house and the extreme closness that comes with being married (both emotionally and physically), the change to being alone is quite a bit different from being alone as a single person. I mean, Luke's been gone for over two months now and I've had the house all to myself. But because we don't connect on the same level that you and Nathan have, I don't miss him nearly as much as you miss Nathan after just a few days. I'm kind of enjoying having the house all to myself, actually. Don't get me wrong, I'll be glad when Luke's back because, like you said, it's too quiet. The single life does get lonely sometimes. But I've managed to keep strong friendships with a lot of people up north and have people down south with whom I feel comfortable hanging out.
Personally, I think singleness is something that God is asking me to embrace right now, as much as I sometimes dislike it. I get tired of people saying, "Oh, you're single? Let me introduce you to my son" or friend or neighbor or nephew's first-cousin's sister's neighbor's cat-sitter's step-son.
But I do like being remembered by my married friends (or sister-in-law!) sometimes. :o) Good luck with the rest of the time 'til he gets back. (Where'd he go and when's he get back, by the way? I'm so out of touch. Email me that sometime. Thanks!)
Love and blessings!
Enjoyed your blog....keep writing....single parenting is rewarding but hard especially the seperation from them (the kids). Hang in there. I know from personal experiance (as a s.p.) it does work out if you trust in God.
take care,
Ed
Time apart does stop you from taking someone for granted, hey? And that's a good thing. :)
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